My personal journey started in 2012 and it has by no means been plain sailing. I’ve had to endure many storms along the way, and still, have days where I need to adjust my sails to get to calmer waters! But these stormy seas have made me the person I am today, and they are the reason balancedB was started.
For most of my adult life, I was a self-confessed yo-yo dieter & resident couch potato! I’m not quite sure if it was the onset of a little midlife crisis, but in the beginning of 2012 I decided enough was enough, I wanted to be in the best shape of my life when I hit my big “40” later that year… yip, a midlife crisis for sure!
Somehow my looming 40th (aka midlife crisis) was enough motivation at the time, to get me to follow through with a diet for once in my life! I ended up losing 30kg’s by the time my 40th rolled around, then proceeded to lose another 5kg’s to get onto a bodybuilding/fitness stage a few months later! I was soooo happy with my life, Mmmm…. was I though?
Then, life happened! 3 days before I was due to step on stage again, I got a call that none of us think we will ever get…. My routine pap came back with positive cervical cancer cells! I was a mess! My eldest, then 17-year-old daughter was with me when I got the news and was left to console me while my husband rushed home to be with me. Little did I know that it would be my turn to console her just a few hours later when we got the news that her dad (my ex-husband) had passed away.
I can without a doubt say, that was the worse day of my life! I was left trying to pick up the pieces of a very broken 17-year-old and at the same time, try to digest and cope with my pap results. Thankfully through ongoing counselling, my daughter is dealing with her loss, and 3 surgeries later (the 3rd being a hysterectomy) I’m all clear. Having gone through this ordeal has taught me a few things, one of them being NEVER to take my health or life for granted again because it can all be gone in a blink of an eye!
Something else it opened my eyes to was just how fixated and obsessed I had become in my quest to achieve the “perfect” body! I had neglected everything and everyone else in my life, for what?! A body that due to me being so extreme, suffered an ALMIGHTY rebound within 4 months and looked WORSE than ever before. All because BALANCE was no longer part of my life!
I struggled for two and a half years to try to find my mojo again. I had been so restrictive for so long that food had now become something I feared! But boy oh boy, when I did eat it was like I had no off switch!!! I found myself once again searching for that elusive quick fix, trying every diet I could get my hands on!
I would feel so guilty if I ate anything “off plan” and when I made these (what I then deemed) “bad” food choices I would tell myself “oh well you’ve messed up, you may as well just go for it and get as much in as you can… quickly!!!” It would then become like an all you can eat buffet FOR DAYS ON END!
If I didn’t have enough of this so called “bad/off limits” food in my house I would drive to the shop, fill a packet with everything and anything and literally sit in the parking lot eating every single item before I went home…. Because if nobody saw me eating it then it didn’t happen, right?!
It became a vicious cycle of binge, starve, add more cardio… Repeat!
Restrictive, low-calorie eating had given me an eating disorder, plain & simple! I was desperate to find a solution because the consequence of my OWN actions were sending me deeper and deeper into depression!
I was so ashamed of how badly I had rebound, that I even stopped going to my regular gym! Instead, I slowly started buying home gym equipment, that way I could train and nobody would see how badly I had rebound…how ridiculously superficial?! This home gym has since become a very well-equipped little gym, and one I wouldn’t trade for all the tea in China!
Finally, in the beginning of 2016, I started hearing more and more about something called “flexible nutrition”. It peaked my interest enough for me to start doing some research. After a few months of stalking a few IIFYM coaches on social media and pretty much being a sponge on google, I eventually decided to give it a go… The rest, as they say, is history!
As soon as I started focussing on nourishing & strengthening my body rather than starving & punishing it, the “magic” that I had spent my entire adult life up till that point searching for, happened naturally and without much effort! All I needed was a tiny bit of patience and loads of BALANCE!
I am so passionate about how flexible nutrition changed my life, that I left my corporate job to study fitness nutrition so I can help others find their happy balance like I have!
I am now proudly, a certified ISSA (International Sports Science Association) Specialist in Fitness Nutrition and balancedB is my coaching platform where I can now do what I am truly so very passionate about…. Helping others find BALANCE!
My life has changed dramatically thanks to Flexible Nutrition, and my hope is that you will get to experience your very own life changing experience too!
If you are ready to embark on your journey with me as your coach, then pop me an email
and let’s start this balanced journey together! 😊